Today I remain unbroken. I failed what I 'wanted to do' - because I merely 'hoped' to accomplish the Gym today, on an off-day. Not a set-back but a red flag. Am I committed to this journey or am I wavering. Perhaps my religious upbringing helps and hinders. I learned the power of faith - good thing. I learned the agony of guilt -another thing. The Darin of, say, 2010 would guilt-out at every failed goal. That Darin would crap his pants, figuratively, and panic when things didn't go according to his plan/goal/hopes. I'm pretty glad that Darin is gone.
Wavering is not failure. My damn scale showing TERRIBLE numbers for me is not failure. Eating a single peanut M&M today is not failure. Failure is not possible because I will never have success at Fitness, because Fitness is a PROCESS....Fitness is a lifestyle never attainable because the minute one stops trying to reach it; the minute one compromises, they lose it.
I have a long journey ahead - God willing. I'm beyond blessed to have support from friends and family.
Today's Meals - Too few calories but I felt completely full most of the day.
Random Photo: Self-portrait circa 2004 and about 215-220lbs
Wavering is perfectly human. I believe fitness, although far from being a child's play, is achievable as long as the person who decided to incorporate it into his/her lifestyle is committed. Slipping every now and then is tolerable as long as one knows how to get back on track.
ReplyDeleteI refuse to fail too, but I make sure I get my off days, else I'd go berserk. :-p
All the best to you. You can do it. :)